ICYMI, (Although, how you “in case you missed it” on this one is a mystery to me) the Cubs are in a one game Wild Card playoff with the Pirates tomorrow evening.
Here’s the thing: I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO APPROACH THIS GAME
We have reviewed why I love the Cubs. And my dad’s side of the family are huge Pirates fans. Although, frankly, this year I couldn’t care less about their stupid team winning. This is OUR turn. And, I’m sorta hoping Dad’s pulling for MY team this year up there in heaven. #badtheology?
So it’s settled: I love the Cubs.
What’s not settled is whether I can actually sit through this do-or-die game. I’m conflicted. I’m worried. I’m…used to them letting me down. I have a glimmer of hope they can do it.
1 – Do I, in full Cubs regalia, get totally invested in every pitch of this game?? Let the emotions fly free? Yell, scream, cheer? What if they lose??? You can’t get emotionally invested in something without feeling pain.
This could be painful.
2 – Do I sit by myself in my room and watch it so I can just be myself? And to help you understand what “be myself” means – last winter, when it was almost Spring Training, the Cubs had this commercial that showed Wrigley Field covered in snow. Beautiful music played. There were words about how the season was going to be starting soon. You guys, I had tears.
During a commercial about Wrigley Field.
To make the point even more clear: I did not cry when I saw Steel Magnolias.
There’s a hype video going around about the Cubs’ season – a friend sent it to me a few weeks ago. I cried. My husband laughed. I started laughing with tears streaming down my face.
I don’t get it either.
3 – Do I ignore it and just read the box score afterward – thus removing myself from the minute by minute pain? Sort of like unsubscribing from Nordstrom’s daily sales emails when I’m trying to be good and on a budget? If you don’t know the cute boots are out there, you live oblivious. Ignorance is bliss – or so I’ve heard.
4- Do I watch the game with friends so we can experience this together? Community is such a trendy byword these days… community in sports is trickier… trying to be all dignified and all when you’re basically like, “OHMIGOODNESS, KRIS BRYANT IS SO ADORABLE!” Trust me when I say this probably does not make people want to “do life” with me or “be in community” with me.
5 – Watching with my kids is even a little tricky. They know I love the Cubs. But it could get ugly. It could get real. It could give material enough for a couple therapy sessions for them. I’ve basically already told them, “hey, look, I’m doing my best as your parent. But if you in your humanity are unable to process me in my humanity, feel free to go to therapy as an adult.” This could send them right there.
Ugh. What to do.